Thanksgiving...I'm so grateful, AND so spent

Okay, so I know this is supposed to be my artistic presentation of what I'm feeling right now...well, screw that for today...

I'm drained...I've been working (my current occupation) like a mad woman. I still have a husband who has needs, a four year old who seems to think I'm Jesus (he follows me around like a disciple), an infant who is completely confused about why I keep leaving him with daddy, and a singing opportunity that I'm trying to prepare for...WFEWWW! SMH!

And to top it off, my house is a complete wreck, I can't stand it. My office and my car look just fine, car may need a little washing on the outside, but inside it's just fine. My office could use some fine tuning from our maintenance department, but desk is clean and everything is neat...but my house, complete disaster. SMH

And I'm old school, as in, I do the cooking, the cleaning, and the child raising all while working a demanding job and making sure I spend my time with the Lord. I don't know how my mother did it, all with me being a jerk half the time.

On top of that I have a great singing opportunity and a sista can't hit the note...what kind of nonsense is that. I keep going over it and over it. I even dreamed about it last night. Maybe I'm taking this a little too serious, but I take everything too serious. I have to be prepared for all opportunities and I feel like this one might end up being a bust, or is that the pessimist in me talking...don't know.

Now the weekend is over, even though I've been working like crazy at home, I still have so much to do before the year is up. I wish I could get some help at work, but it's like asking for help is always translated as "I need you to do some more work for me". But I just don't know that I can hit the year end deadline. So it's back to work today, working to prove myself in corporate America, show the boss man that I'm smarter, more dedicated, and more creative than any of the employees he's seen before, during, or after me!

Hey, this write your feelings out thing is pretty therapeutic, I should do this again, maybe I need two blogs...whatever...

DUECES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!